“When we choose where our energy goes, life becomes gentler.”
Di dalam taxi yang bergerak pelan, udara malam terasa lebih tenang, seolah ikut melambat. Percakapan tadi mengingatkan bahwa tidak semua hal perlu dipoles. Ada yang cukup diakui apa adanya.
Pak sopir menoleh sebentar lalu berkata pelan, “I used to feel scared when I was honest with myself, like honesty makes me look weak.”
“Then I finally realized it only means I am still human,” lanjutnya. “What hurts more is pretending to be strong all the time. Your body gets tired. Your heart gets tired too.”
Saya terdiam sejenak. “Do you ever try to fight every feeling?”. Ia menggeleng. “Not anymore. On the road, some people cut in, some get angry, some rush. I used to get angry too.”
“Now I tell myself, maybe their day is heavy. I do not have to carry their anger with me.” Kata-katanya sederhana, tapi perlahan mengendap.
“Yeah, some things need care. Some things just need to pass. We just need to choose wisely where to put our energy.” Saya setengah berbisik, lebih seperti berbicara pada diri sendiri.
Mungkin hidup pun berjalan seperti itu. Ada yang perlu diusahakan dan ada yang cukup diterima serta ada rasa yang pelan-pelan dibiarkan lewat. Saya tersenyum kecil. “Thank you, for the reminder.”
“We cannot control every road, but we can choose our direction.”
Part 31.
